My heart aches, it breaks with the overflow of realization. When news came it seemed so sudden that disbelief and denial overruled rationality. With hands shaking I clicked on your page and saw the endless stream of comments and realized that with physical validity the truth can no longer be denied. You made the unbearable bearable and what could have started out as a mundane experience you've managed to turn around and actually made me look forward to spending another day - day after day without fail - in an otherwise intolerable environment due to innumerable indirect circumstances that had governed my perceptions. You were a rare ray of sunshine that darkness could not penetrate despite those post-midnight conversations we've had while smoke made our eyes glisten with unshed tears that we blinked back in not-so-subtle ways, laughed over our own pathetic attempts at hiding what couldn't be hidden and celebrated instead with those antediluvian songs you never grew tired of. You were, still are, a beautiful soul and those of us who saw through your sweet and light-hearted yet paradoxically, seemingly-emo facade knows I speak the truth. You are free now Teej despite the gruesome circumstances that surrounds the mystery of how you left us. Questions will be answered soon, I hope. For now, for now our hearts cannot help but break a little bit more.
