**gEttiNg rEadY f0r a j0urNEy**

the thought about embarking on a journey excites me, and today, as i sit here writing my very first blog and scrambling around in my head for an hour or two, I am finally, momentarily, able to breathe a different kind of air. for a couple of days the restraints are gone and my shackle-free wrists are itching from the memory of that virtual leather strap. do i dare allow myself to shatter this glorious fantasy and heave on reality in order to look forward on the days yet to come? i think not. i will enjoy this moment. although, every step leading up to this very instance has been painted with a mild coating of deceit, still, does the end justify the means? tsk. that is an unanswerable question and i will not dare to justify my actuations by closing one eye and looking away with the other. how i can literally, physically manage to do that, i will leave that up to the imagination. this weekend holds its own significant meaning in my life, it has its very own chapter seperate from the mindless and numbing trudgings of my monotonous existence. i am currently overwhelmed and as much as i would like to elaborate further, i have yet to pack! lol